Sometimes we don't know why things happen. And sometimes we read this verse and think, "God, really? Things don't seem to be working out for my good." In the last year, I've thought that a lot. And I have had to learn to trust God...more than I ever have before. My experience of trust came in a very unexpected way: a medical scare.
Over Spring break, I went to the Dominican Republic (DR) on a Missions Trip. I had counted down for weeks to the trip. I was ecstatic. And on my 3rd day, I had a medical emergency and had to be flown home. When I got back to NY, I went to numerous doctor appointments and tests. And after each one I thought, "God, why? I was on a missions trip! I was doing good for Your Kingdom! Why?" Well, God has amazing plans for me. He knows what's good for me, even if I don't understand it. And this situation was no exception.
I want to go into the medical field. More specifically, I want to go to nursing school and then nurse practitioner school. The DR trip really made that path clear to me. Had I not had my medical issues, I would have come home from the DR ready to go to nursing school and only nursing school. But when I had to come back early to a hospital full of doctors and nurses, I finally realized what God was showing me. I had to let go. I had to trust that His plan is right for me. His plan is perfect while mine is fallible. He wants me to sacrifice my time for others, to go through 8 years of school so that I can be prepared to help medically in a third world country. Had I not been sent home early, I would have never realized my calling. I would never have decided to continue on to nurse practitioner school. Instead, I would have gone to nursing school and lived my comfortable life in the United States.
My medical scares are still not cleared up. I have no idea what my senior year of high school holds. I don't know if I'm going to be able to get through it. I'm unsure if I will be able to handle the courseload. I'm not sure if I am going to get sicker. But it's not my job to know or to plan. My job is to trust. And in order to do that, I need to have faith that God really does work for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. I need to have trust that is also faith. I need to lean on Him to follow in my calling. As I enter senior year, I want to have one goal: to let trust be transformed into faith for the glory of my Savior.
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| Taken from http://mashable.com/2010/02/24/social-media-trust/ |
